i'm no good at this

Well I guess I could've stayed ashore
I didn't have to go
They say sometimes to find yourself
You gotta let go
And the water's cold around me now
So far below
And I hear a voice beside me now
Just try to let go

And I'm still here
On the ocean floor
But the world's not
Moving anymore
In the quiet
Something has changed
And I can hear God
Call my name

But before I go I wanna take
A moment and rest
And look back on all my days above
And how I was blessed
And I wasn't all I could've been
That I'll confess
But I loved my God and family
No regrets

And I'm just here
On the ocean floor
And I can't feel my
Heartbeat anymore
In the quiet
Something has changed
And I can hear God
Call my name

-michael logen "ocean"

If You can hear me, just keep hearing me. I realize that I'm the one wandering, the one threatening to leave. You won't do the leaving. Oh, forgive.